So I Bought a Firetruck

We are quickly coming up on the two year anniversary of one of the coolest things God has ever done for us. And I realized I hadn’t blogged it. Insane!

There are posts on here about the continuing saga of the water issues we’ve had. But I will summarize thus:

  • The day we moved in to this house, 11 years ago, the water went out. If we had known then…
  • It took a week to get it figured out, but the well was not dry, as we feared, it was merely a slow well and required the water being drawn to be set at a much slower rate than “normal”.
  • Once the water worked we discovered that the homeowner had gone to great lengths to hide how orange the water was. I’m not talking regular orange well water, I’m talking my ankles were turning orange. After one shower, the ceiling would have orange spots from the condensation. Like a gallon of water standing on the counter looked like a rather weak tea/koolaid solution.  It was really orange. Almost the worst the guy who sold us our softener and rust filter have ever seen. But I digress, as usual.
  • Once the house was fitted with a rust filter and water softner, life went on for a good while as a mostly “normal” life.
  • Until the well leaked into the crawlspace. Apparently though the rest of Indiana was experiencing a drought, I had standing water and mud puddles. Eventually, my hubby and I realized something was off and discovered that there was a leak in our crawlspace, which had filled with THOUSANDS of gallons of water. My rough estimate is that somewhere around 1000 cubic feet of water had filled my crawl space and we had no idea it had been leaking. Apparently that slow well was capable of a lot of water output over time.

So it would appear that we would be abundantly blessed with water, being as our well could make so much water. The fact is we would be abundantly blessed with water struggles.  Because, guess what happened a year later.

  • No water. None. Well was dry. Not from the leak. It had recovered just fine. No problem. It just mysteriously stopped producing water. Ironically, the neighboring county drilled a series of wells about a mile north of my house at this same time. Ironic. But they won’t let us use their water from their wells drilled a mile from my house coincidentally at the same time that my well stopped producing water.
  • So we drilled a new well. It had no water.
  • So we cleaned the well. The well guy said after cleaning it, it would be as good as it ever was, would produce as well (ha!) as it ever had. So he cleaned it. And said he couldn’t figure out how on earth we had ever gotten any water out of that well, it simply would not produce enough water to maintain.

This is the short version, so I’ll wrap it up.

  • Basically we spent the next several years (5) with a variety of methods of hauling water.  From a very rough pick up truck with a 400 Gallon tank to using a friend’s flat bed “log truck” and two tanks to haul 1000 gallons of water.

Water hauling in 0 degrees is beyond sucky. You can’t imagine how fast water freezes…

Then my husband saw a firetruck for sale. And I got the information. They were asking more than we really had the money to spend. So my husband asked me if I was really interested, he had a message and was going to call the guy. I told him “Look, unless the guy says ‘We’ll take a thousand dollars’, I don’t think we can afford it.” This was less than half the asking price so I went on about my business.

Then my husband calls. “Um, so I asked how much they wanted to get from it and he said ‘How about a thousand’ so…” So, yeah, I bought a Firetruck.

And it is a super cool Firetruck. It turns out that when it was brand new it was purchased by my Uncle’s fire department, my uncle himself being part of the process of acquiring it. Years later it was sold to the fire department where my sister volunteered. And then we bought it.

So yeah, God gave us a fire truck. It make the process of hauling water a one hour job instead of three and it makes hauling water in 0 degrees go from miserable and sucky to just not fun.

And, it’s just fun to own a firetruck.

The Mysterious Case of the Stolen Identity – I am not who I think I am

Warning: I’m about to get preachy here. You might want to turn the page. Er, um, click to a different tab. But don’t worry, I’m preaching to me here. The only toes I’m looking to step on here are my own. 

I woke up this morning pretty much the same as every day, unwillingly. I dragged myself out of bed and began my morning process. As I stood there packing my husband’s lunch I heard these words, “You have let your identity get stolen.”

God made it pretty clear that this was what I have been waiting to hear and what I’ve been needing to write.

I’ve been letting my identity get stolen.

We live in a world of identity theft. It is rampant. As such we also live in a world full of warnings and tips on how to prevent identity theft.

We know how to check gas pumps for card skimmers, position our bodies so people can’t see our PIN, and to check our bank accounts and credit scores frequently in order to monitor them for identity theft.

We try to prevent identity theft because once your identity is stolen it is such a pain to get it back. Proving who you are, removing unwanted charges against your credit, notifying all the people with whom you do regular business and having them change their records of you. It is a hassle. And once you have done it all, you have to periodically recheck to make sure your identity is still protected against unwanted assault.

Years ago my Mother-In-Law had her wallet stolen. It was a hassle to fill out a police report, fix all the unwanted charges, change all the information that was no longer correct, and in general return to normal life. During the course of the investigation, video footage was found of the person claiming to be my MIL checking out at a store. Viewing the video, one was able to easily say, “That isn’t her.”

Friends, that is Jesus. When our identity is stolen by satan, Jesus looks at the footage of our life and says, “That’s not her.” The problem is, we don’t always hear Him. Because we don’t listen.

Do not misunderstand. Your identity can never really be stolen. Not from Jesus who knows who we really are. But it can be stolen from us. We can begin to soak in the lies and forget all the Truths we have known until we believe the lies against our identity and begin to question who we truly are.

Satan is such a dirty rotten liar and thief. He is out to steal our identity. He wants to steal our joy and lie to us about who we are. He doesn’t want us to remember who we are. He wants to steal that identity so that we wander around wondering who we really are. And he distracts us long enough that we begin to question who we used to be. Were really ever who we thought we were?

Let’s take a moment and remember who we are and Whose we are.

I am the daughter of the King. I am the heir. I belong to the Holy King of Kings. I am all the things that He says that I am.

And no amount of lies from the pit of hell will change who I am.

But if I don’t monitor the statements of who I am, monitor my identity, the lies will change who I think I am. They will allow me to wallow in the stains and blemishes on my credit made by the thief.

When your identity is stolen, you are not liable for the dings on your credit made by the thief. But when we allow satan to steal our identity from us, to convince us we are not who we thought we were, we allow him to stain our credit with Christ. Or to think he has (or we have). Truthfully, Christ is watching the footage and saying, “That’s not her” and instantly cleaning our credit, removing the charges against our credit made by satan. But we let the filthy liar make those charges, unchecked. We, maybe it’s just me, I stand there and look at the charges to my credit, my character and I begin to believe they must be true. There are so many. They must be real.

And somewhere in the back of my mind I remember all the lessons on how to protect my identity, the steps to take to regain my identity once it has been stolen, and I ignore them, feeling somehow like I deserve the punishment for allowing the situation to happen. I didn’t safeguard my identity well enough so I deserve the punishment.

I think maybe I want the punishment.

I think maybe I am more comfortable with punishment than Grace because I understand it. It makes sense. And I have some control. Punishment puts me in control because I can choose to avoid punishment with my behaviors. (Not that I am any good at that, mind you.) Grace puts me out of control because God’s love for me is all His to give and not mine to earn.

Which is delightful.

And terrifying.

You mean, God just loves me? Just because? Just because He chooses to? Not because I earn it? Deserve it? But because of who He is? Man, that gives all the control to God. All the power and control of loving me is God’s. I’d like to say I’m happy with that. But I’m not really.

I mean I love Grace. I love that God loves me even when I am so unlovable. And I’m glad that I can’t earn it, because I can’t lose it either.

But if I’m being honest here, and why not be, I’m rather terrified of it. If God loves me wholly by choice, then will He choose to stop loving me? I’m so wholly unlovable. Maybe that is what terrifies me. But God. Oh, He is so Good. You know He even understands that fear because He tells us in Romans 8:38-39:

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

These words are of great comfort. Because they remind me that I can’t really separate myself from the love of God. And He won’t choose to be separated. Grace is hard and messy. But Grace is what I really, really need.

So today I realized that I have let my identity be stolen. From me. But not from Christ. He has always known who I am and He still knows who I am. I may have a bit of an earthly mess to clean up, may have to reestablish credit with people who came into contact with the satan-stolen version of my identity. But my Creator knows me. He believes me. He knows which purchases toward my character were made by me and which were made by satan.

The key is to stay in connection and communication with the issuer of our credit, to stay connected to God so that He can help us clear the charges as satan makes them before we become so buried under the pile of charges that we can’t hear Jesus saying, “That’s not you.”

Why My 18 Year Old Homeschooler Isn’t Graduating This Year

It is that time of year. Graduation announcements are starting to come in the mail and on Facebook. This year is particularly tricky for me. You see, this is the year that my first two kids were “suppose to” graduate from high school.

Once upon a time a young momma, and recently “retired” public school teacher, started her first year of homeschooling. “Well,” she thought, “I’ll just put this 4 year old in class with her 5 year old brother because she’s high verbal and smart and they will go merrily about their school years together and graduate in 2018 together.”

Then same said teacher/momma realized that low verbal boy was also struggling with certain skills that so often give young boys cause to struggle. Highly trained momma/teacher with years of experience teaching struggling readers employed all the tactics at her highly trained fingertips and pulled nearly every last hair from her ever graying head only to realize something….

This kid wasn’t ready. He wasn’t ready to read and write. He was ready to build, dream, run, experiment. He was ready to learn. He was learning a lot. He was not ready to read and write.

The trouble was, this teacher/momma was still too highly trained and hadn’t been untrained yet. She hadn’t learned about learning. “Reading readiness” was something she had heard about all her years of training but it had been poorly taught. Reading Readiness simply was not what she thought it was. This momma/teacher lost a lot of time worrying and struggling and fighting and generally trying to shove this terrifically square peg in this precisely made round hole.

By the time this teacher/momma realize that she just needed to find the proper square hole for this square peg, she looked around and realized how much time had been wasted fighting a battle that had never really existed. The battle to hit certain arbitrary lines drawn by some unnamed “expert” in some sand on a beach somewhere far away from this battlefield.

Eventually this momma realized the goal. It was the goal that was important. “To raise decent humans who love Jesus, love others and are productive members of society.” No where in that goal does it say “To graduate high school at 18 (or before if you start Kindergarten at age 4 to keep your brother company)”.

So this momma/teacher sat back and evaluated life. She looked at what these two kiddos of hers knew and needed to know. She looked at how much they had grown and changed in the last few years of high school. She especially looked at their goals. Boy wanted certain things that did not include college, but did include gaining certain skills. Girl wanted college which included certain courses yet to finish.

Teacher/momma did what made absolute sense. She established a set course to get said children prepared for their future. Same said course included girl graduating the year she would have had she gone to public school and boy graduating a year later than he would have but the same year as girl.

The world was ending! Boy would not graduate at 18! Girl would not graduate early! Oh no!

Not actually. Momma/teacher realized, boy child was not ready to take off into the world at 18. He had dreams that made him living at home a better choice during that 18/19th year than being “out on his own”. So if he was living at home training for his desired future, why does the year of “graduation” matter? Turns out, it didn’t.

Turns out, there was nothing wrong with this boy. He, like so many boys, just matured at at different rate than the girls in his life. When this boy turned 17 a switch went on and he began to mature and learn and explore at such a rate that it was like a whole different kid. He’s on a good path to reaching the goal “Love Jesus, love others, be a productive member of society”. And when the pressure was released to fit that square peg in that round hole? Ah, boy child began to flourish and find himself.

And girl? What about said girl who was going to graduate at 17 and conquer the world? Momma/teacher decided that maybe being released into the cold hard world of college life a year early and being allowed to push herself academically in pursuit of a career she had not yet decided upon at the expense of exploring many areas of interest and finding something she truly loves was perhaps not in girl child’s best interest either. So rather than bury herself in the books of academia, girl child has become a widely read, well-rounded young lady of many interesting interests and will happily graduate “on time” in 2019.

So what was the point of this little tale, you may be asking yourself? Simply this, don’t get so buried in making sure your children, be they homeschooled or public schooled, do all the right things at all the right times in all the right order that you forget to look up and breath, look around and see where they are headed, correct the course as needed and guide them to the goal you have set forth for them. Don’t let the “suppose to’s” and the “everyone one say’s” push your kids off the path of the course before them. Don’t be afraid to tell other people that the course for your square peg doesn’t look like the same course for their round peg. Or even for your other pegs, whatever shape they be.

Stay strong mommas and daddies. You are uniquely designed for these multi-shaped pegs, and you alone are tasked with being certain the hole they are headed for fits their shape.

My Deceitful Heart

Ok, so here is my question. What if you serve but your heart isn’t in it? What if you do a good thing, for a friend or stranger, because you know it is the right thing, you know you should, but you don’t want to?

Maybe you are pouting. Whining. Grumpy. Just flat out don’t “feel” like doing it.

But you do.

So what?

Does that matter? Does it not “count”? Are your good deeds tarnished and tainted by your cruddy heart? Do they not honor and bless the receiver if the giver gives with a less than cheerful heart? (This is presuming that the receiver isn’t aware of the giver’s cruddy attitude, we are talking how you feel inside, not how your act toward the recipient of your kindness.)

My BFF and I have pondered this a few times (not that she would ever feel this way). I have had the random occasion to babysit for a friend in need. And a vast majority of the time I am beyond happy to do so. Really. But there might have been a few times (friends reading this, never with you, other friends from other states) where my heart wasn’t in it. Perhaps I was tired, hormonal, cranky, or in some other way less than thrilled to watch someone else’s kid but have done so, with outward cheerfulness. Does the fact that I didn’t want to, that I was rather uncheerful in my heart but still cheerful on the outside make that blessing less of a blessing to my friend?

I don’t think so.

I really think, maybe you disagree, that sometimes you have to “fake it ’til you make it”. Sometimes you pretend to want to do some thing or other for a friend because you know they need it. And sometimes, most of the time (dare I say all the time?), in the end you are happy you chose to do so.

I believe the heart behind your actions is crucial. I really do. God tells us that if we do all the good things but have not love, (1 Corinthians 1-3) it profits nothing. I believe that.

But I also believe that where our hands and feet start, our heart will follow if we allow it, if we are servants of the One True King.

So, I ask again:

What if you serve and your heart isn’t in it?

If you have a heart to love, a heart to serve, a heart to give, some days even that heart will falter. The human heart is a wicked deceitful thing (Jeremiah 17:9). We cannot rely on it alone. My heart lies to me often.

Which is why we need Jesus so desperately. We need Him to tell us to love. To remind us to give. To encourage us to serve.

If your heart is always bitter and angry, if you never want to do good, to serve, to help a friend in need, well, you need a little more Jesus.

But if you usually love to help, yet you find yourself bitter and angry today at the prospect, maybe you need a little “fake it ’til you make it” cure. Maybe you need to just suck it up and do what Jesus has placed on your heart. Babysit. Fix a meal. Clean a bathroom. Serve someone when you least want to do it.

I’m pretty sure you will find that you are blessed as much as, perhaps more than, the one you served.

 

Playing Games

My little guy loves board games. He is six and he constantly wants to play a board game. The problem is, he always wants to play something like Monopoly or Life. And he is six. He just doesn’t understand quite know how to play the game. And he doesn’t, yet, possess the skills necessary to play those games.

That is how I feel about life. Not the board game. The thing we live every day. Life is a series of “games” that we must play. And some games require certain skills that I do not possess. Some skills I may some day gain, others I may never.

When I was in school, I played the game of school well. I was very good at it. Not because I was extremely smart. I mean, whether I’m smart is highly debatable. But I was very, very good at the game. I didn’t know it was a game, of course. But I possessed the skills to play along. I knew how to do enough work to get good grades, how to be pleasing to the teachers, how to skate when I didn’t want to work and how to work when skating wasn’t an option. I knew how much effort must be applied so that when I wanted to get away with not applying effort, teachers let me because I was otherwise “a good student”. It really is a big game. Because I really was not as smart as some other people I know who never could quite conquer the game.

Social Acuity is a skill I do not possess. As a kid in school, I knew this. I really didn’t have great social skills. I think I presumed I would just “grow into it”.

As an adult I have come to realize, nope. I will never have a lot of the social skills that make some people such good…. socializers.

Yes, a good deal of it is attributable to the fact that I am an introvert. I do not naturally interact well with others.

But there is more to it. I have never learned the finesse of not speaking my mind. Of telling people what they want to hear. Of engaging people into a conversation about themselves and adding just a little of my story to encourage them to continue.

I also do not possess the skill to make myself look good. Not necessarily physically (though that isn’t my strong suit either), but socially, academically, emotionally, and spiritually.

Some people possess a skill of, humbly, making themselves “look” appealing. They aren’t braggarts. In fact, if you asked people around them they would say that these gifted individuals are humble people. But they have a gift for wrapping their faults in a cloak of strength making their very faults look like strengths. They have a way of being so very affable that you can’t help but see every strength in them and ignore, disregard or totally not see any weakness in them. They soar at making themselves look good in a way that doesn’t look like they are trying to make themselves look good.

I admire these people. They are not dishonest or braggarts. They are just very talented when it comes to the game of Society.

I lack this ability.

What I do have is the unwavering ability to be me. It isn’t through conviction. “I’m going to just going to be me and you can like me or too bad.” No, it’s not that at all. It’s simply that I lack the skills to be anything else.

I cannot make myself look good. I cannot pretend to be something I’m not. I cannot even pull off the “Sunday go to Meetin’ Momma” look. (You know, the moms who look totally put together, their kids and husbands look put together, their kids clothes match – I don’t even mean each other I just mean each kid is wearing clothes that match, they show up looking fresh and cheerful with perfectly coiffed children and manage to look completely “normal” until the end of church.)

I show up at church, with 6 or 7 kids in tow. I show up with 4 girls with hair in varying states of brushed and 2 or 3 boys in varying states of disheveled. Camo is a color at our house and is frequently the main color donned by the boys. The youngest girl might, or might not, have shoes. The older girls may or may not have shoes for that matter… We come through the doors like a flurry of activity, boisterous and loud, kids bouncing up the stairs for donuts, me bringing up the rear. We make an entrance. We are seen and heard.

I look at other “kempt” mommas. Their kids walk, actually walk, inside. They are tidy and adorable. The moms are smiling and look so lovely. I want to emulate. But I lack the skills to really, actually care.

After years of being torn, feeling like I “should” be or at least look like some specific thing, feeling like I should look like the mommas whose kids are quiet and calm, wear matching clothes and cute shoes, or some shoes – after years of thinking I should be able to talk to other people with the social graces of an extrovert – after years of feeling like I was failing because no matter how hard I tried to be something, anything else, I was only able to be … me… this mess that I see – after years of all of this struggle, I am finally starting to see something incredible.

I don’t have to settle for being me.

Apparently me is what I am supposed to be. Apparently people who like me actually like me simply because I am me. (Yeah, I don’t get it either…)

So what is my rambling point?

Life is a series of games. It is a series of games played by players of all different skill levels. Games played by people who don’t even know they are playing games.

Some games we are good at. Some games we stink at. But if we are so bogged down with keeping score in the game and worried about losing, we will miss the fun of the game. You know, when you play a game, not only the “winners” are supposed to have fun. Everyone playing the game is supposed to have fun. In life, the games aren’t about winning and losing. They are about getting around and through the events of life with as much fun and joy as possible.

We take this game of life way too seriously. Remember, nobody gets out of it alive.

 

Half Star Christian

Yep. That’s me. I’m a half star Christian. On my good days. Some days I can only claim a quarter star.

My friends and I joke frequently about this. It is a way to laugh and make fun of ourselves and our tendency to think that it’s all about us. The world has a way of making us look too much at ourselves. The more we look at ourselves the unhappier we become. We are never enough.

Not thin enough. Not young enough. Not fit enough. Not pretty enough. Not smart enough.

And not a good enough Christian.

There it is. There is the crux of the Christian problem. Being a good enough Christian. Looking like a Christian. Acting like a Christian. Talking like a Christian. Never failing. Never stumbling. Walk a walk of faith and never doubt or fear.

We listen to messages our entire life on how to be and what to do. We know we are not to covet our neighbor’s things, lie, steal, you know… all the biggies. We know we are supposed to tithe, take care of widows and orphans, pray without ceasing and have unwavering faith. There is a list of things we are to do and not to do. And we easily become bogged down with the list and forget the grace.

Oh, there it is again.

The Grace.

The Grace.

Yes, the Bible does contain valuable guidelines that tell us the best ways to live our lives. Trying to following these guidlelines is an important step in trusting God and in seeing good fruit in our lives. We cannot go wrong in following God’s list of Dos and Donts.

But God knew from the beginning that perfect wasn’t in our nature. Sin. Sin entered our lives and destroyed any chance of us having a perfect life.

But God.

God didn’t just “solve a problem”. He created a solution before the problem existed. He knew we’d fail. He had a plan to show us a way to His perfect world. But first we had to see that we couldn’t do it ourselves. In His infinite wisdom He knew that we would always try to do it on our own. Like my three year old who can put on her own clothes and my six year old who can build his own real working radio, God knew that we would think we could earn our own salvation.

He let us wander around in desert made of our sin and poor choices. Let us see how life apart from His Grace and His Love really is. Then, He poured His perfect love out on a cross for us.

He let us see how Good life was WITH him. He gave us a savior who would gladly pay the price for all of our sins.

And how do we thank him?

We try to do it ourselves.

Again and again we play the part. We talk the talk. We try to walk the walk. But the walk is too hard. So we get angry and hurt and try to pretend we are as perfect as all the other people are trying to pretend to be. And here is the funny part, we expect other Christians to be as perfect as they pretend to be. As perfect as we pretend to be. As perfect as we know we are not.

Friends, we, as Christians, really need to stop looking at our fellow Christians in judgement. Let God deal with that. I’m not saying that we “condone sin”. I’m saying that we love each other. Stop saying and thinking, “She calls herself a Christian, she drank 3 glasses of wine last night! That’s not moderation!” Or “He goes to church but I happen to know that his son was born only 7 months after the wedding…”

This is not what we are called to do. We are here to love one another. Sometimes love looks like telling someone the hard truth about their sin. Sometimes it looks like giving them a cup of coffee and a shoulder to cry on when they lament their sin.

We cannot be perfect Christians. We cannot be 5 Star Christians. Our friends and fellow church goers likewise cannot be 5 Star Christians. And the more we try to rank ourselves as Christians, the more we really miss the point.

Because being a Christian just isn’t about us. It is about Jesus. It is about loving a savior who loved us while we were still slaves to our sin. It’s about loving our neighbors enough to look past (not overlook) their sin and see the heart that Jesus came to save.

Stop making your Christianity about you. Stop making other people’s Christianity about you. Remember the Cross. Remember Jesus. It is really about Him.

Spend your life trying to point others to the Jesus that you love and that loves you. Spend your life trying to do the best you can, improving your life and the lives of those around you, making better choices than the day before. Spend your life in gratitude of the grace that saves despite our failures.

But stop spending your life judging your Christianity. Start living your salvation.

 

 

 

 

Growing Joy in Thankfulness

The entire month of November, my Facebook newsfeed is historically filled with people daily posting those things for which they find themselves thankful. I really do love it. For so many reasons. Sometimes they remind me to be thankful. Sometimes they are fun and lighthearted and remind me not to take life too seriously (a real problem I have).  But pretty much always I appreciate them.

I’ve learned something from having participated in them in years past, then choosing not to participate but rather to watch.

I am very thankful. I am so thankful for a litany of blessings that if I started listing them here you would stop reading.

A very short list includes:
A Savior who saved me in spite of me and somehow loves me in spite of myself…
A Husband who loves me even when I’m least lovable
Seven amazing kids
Friends fiercely loyal and steadfast
Family for better and worse (face it, we all have both, right?)
Shelter, food, warmth, and a firetruck

I have a huge list of things I’m thankful for. And at night before I pass out I begin my ‘Thank you list to God” with the above items. I pretty much always pass out before I even get past these few things.

So what I have really learned about me is how very grateful and thankful I am for these big things in my life.

I’ve also learned that I am not grateful enough for the little things in life.

I’ve written before about thankfulness and being thankful for the Great Goodness of God. But honestly, what I’m really learning over these past few weeks is that I focus so much on the big things and how grateful I am for them. (And I am. And I do. I do think all the time about these things.) I just feel like I am missing so many little things that other people see to be thankful about. It’s a “forest and trees” scenario here.

Perhaps there is something in that. Perhaps some secret of living a life filled with joy includes the ability to see past the big blessings and to see the little things, not just for little pleasures, but as a part of a bigger whole. My heart gets so full sometimes of gratitude of the blessings in my life, I feel like I’m going to burst knowing the unmerited favor of a Holy God that granted me this husband and these kids. But I’ll honestly admit that joy has never been an easy one for me. If I am truly grateful for so many big things, why is joy so hard?

Perhaps because joy is from the daily. Joy is from seeing the blessing in a cup of coffee. Joy is from a heart of being thankful for a kind act bestowed by someone in cyber-land, a kind word from someone in the checkout line, a quiet moment in front of a fire. Perhaps joy comes from the same place thankfulness comes from. Perhaps being thankful as a way of life has less to do with being grateful for the big things in life and more to do with taking the time to see the little things and finding the moment to savor the small blessings and to really think and feel “Thank you” for those moments.

Perhaps joy is the expression of a lifestyle that sees the little blessings, wallows in them, rolls around in the little things of life that just being thankful overlooks. Perhaps “Thankfulness” is more than being thankful. Perhaps it, too, requires an ongoing outpouring of gratitude for the moments in life that we, I, overlook on my way to the bigger moments, the bigger blessings.

Perhaps “He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much” (Luke 16:10 NKJV) applies here as well. Perhaps being thankful and grateful in that which is “least” grows our thankfulness, and our joy, in the “much”.

I don’t know. Maybe it is just a Monday morning and I’ve not yet had my coffee.